Anyone else have problems with their Father? FATHER'S DAY SOON...?

I wasn't around my father as a kid much, and the little I did see of him made me wish I didn't see so much as that. People makes mistakes, but he different, he was cruel for no reason. I never heard anything close to a compliment my entire childhood. But he made sure he didn't forget to mention things to tear me down, hollering at me, profanities and letting me know how fat and pathetic I was, threatening to beat the living daylights out of me- the only reason he was unsucessful in that is because my mother protected me, and I watched him mistreat her too. He mainly had a lot of hatred of her and wishto bring her down I think why he took his anger out on his children. How am I going to care about somebody like this? He never did anything to help us my whole childhood. I was being treated for depression and anxiety as a child and he still treated me the same crummy way. He makes a big deal about how noble he was in sending us money every month after the divorce- but it was being drafted out of his account by the courts! And he didn't even want that, he begged and tried to fight it tooth and nail. I don't see how he's fulfilled his role as a father to me. Now as he's older and I'm a grown woman he wants to see me. I've seen him several times, this is just about getting someone to take care of him, he's driven off all of his other children and wives (he has many from different marriages.) and is lonely. If he had offered one teeny, little apology or even not, but tried to behave humbly and with patience, give me time, then I might have given him a chance, but he doesn't- his attitude is one of entitlement, shouting demands at me and blaming me and my mother for everything. Not to mention he goes around telling everyone these fantastical lies about me and her, denying his abuse. I don't care about that, I've just had it up to here... he just makes my life hard. Father's Day's just about here so i can't help but think about my own, usually I get depressed. I'm ready to stop seeing him, and I haven't been really, but I think tomorrow is a kind of point of no return if I don't go to him. I feel guilty and stressed out, but I've been letting my head rule my heart and I don't see how this is a healthy relationship. I know what love is- that is how I know that is not what I am getting from him, I have other people who care about me, other family and friends so I'll be alright. I wanted to hear some objective voices though and see what you thought.